Finding the True You
When I first consciously began this journey in 2017, it started with a vision quest. I didn’t like who I was back then. All the women I knew seemed strong and mighty. I was often called “soft” or “weak” because my demeanor was so tender. I saw the vision quest as an opportunity to get rid of my softness.
I literally said a prayer to wish it away. I wanted to come out of the Vision Quest as a new woman; Strong, fortified, ready to kick ass.
I told my spiritual director at the time that I had prayed to “let my Maiden go.”
She lashed back at me immediately,
“Girl! You’re gonna need that!”
And you know, she was right.
The years that followed into my journey as priestess required more tenderness, more softness, more need to feel into the sensuous aspects of my self than ever before. There is no psychic intuition without that maiden. In fact, if you want to cut your intuition off, the first place to start is any tendency you have to care.
Sure enough, my top reviews from clients always talk about how I bring them a sense of peace.
Ultimately, I found that those strong women who accused me of being weak were indeed looking for clarity and peace too. It’s clarity and peace that people are looking for, and I was getting ready to throw it all away because I didn’t like myself.
Sometimes, at the end of an inner journey, you will find that you haven’t been yourself. Even with the early challenges, there’s a great deal of joy in learning “the new you” in the aftermath of that realization. In other journeys, you’ll find that you didn’t have to change a thing at all. You just needed to move through the questing process to know that to be true.
