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On Waiting …

On Waiting …

Recently, I’ve been struck by one of the greatest transition periods of my adult life. Though it is not my first, nor will it be my last, I am still amazed by how debilitating such a process can be. Though they are typically induced by external circumstances, I will advise others not to be fooled. These are internal challenges and are completely out of your control.

We all repeat life lessons that boil down to one life theme. During this phase, I’ve learned the same lesson, yet again: listen to yourself. But, this lesson is not a passive, onetime lesson. I’ve come to a much deeper understanding of how to live this way.


Having long since left the church I’m finding a deeper appreciation for its seminal text. During transition, there is much waiting. It has shifted my perspective on a scripture made indelible from memories in my childhood.


They that wait on the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up their wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary and they shall walk, and not faint (Isaiah 40: 31, KJV).


While we are waiting, there are things to care for. To clean up. To purge. To release. To prepare for the moment at which the winds will turn in our favor. This process can be immensely painful for us and our loved ones. Not only will you feel the great discomfort of surrender, revealed truths, past traumas, and lost causes, but you will also feel immense pressure to get up. You will feel the need to do. To heal so you can adjust to their wishes. To move past this phase and ahead to the next one very quickly. There are deadlines and people are counting on you. You will feel pushed to move.


Don’t. Do Not.


This is the best advice I can give you. No matter how difficult it may be, do not give in to the world’s man-made clock. You are not on their time. Your employers, spouse, partners, children will think you selfish and self-centered. They will be angry and disappointed with you. They will cry and scream and kick and yell. The will lose faith in you. And for all of it, I say, none of this your concern. You are being carried by a Force greater than them all.


When you are fully rested, when you have have completely let go and renewed your own strength, when you have waited for Spirit to animate your true and natural state of being you will be unstoppable.


The winds of the cosmos are far more omnipotent, omniscient, and omnipresent than any human force on this planet. Do not succumb to the pressures of the world to be loved and accepted by the few who may. You are in God’s hands now. Be there. Rest. Cry. Eat Sleep. Dream. Write. Pray. Meditate. And if you feel so moved, yes, work. But only when and if you are inspired to do so. You are no longer subject to the whims and wills of the world. Your guidance and your navigation system are invisible and inconceivable to others. Your journey and the dance you dance on that path are now between you and the Gods of they Sky.


I am reminded of Nicolas Cage in Gone in 60 Seconds. His timing was invisible to all others, yet it was impeccable. He believed in himself. He had a knowing. And his team trusted that knowing. Those that can keep pace with you will. Those that cannot will fall away and follow their own paths. This is fine. All is a blessing. One day we will find each other dancing in divine communion; we will move in syncopated step toward the heaven we wish to build here on earth.

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